Soo yeah,
I don't even know.
I'm feeling rather ... numb.
I guess the pain is starting to go away... >_>
I honestly don't know what to expect.
My future is dull. I have nothing to look forward to. I'm sick of these "challenges" in strength. When I feel like I can't get any lower, life seems to slap me in the face with worse.
When I feel happy, life also finds a way to take my happiness away from me.
I can't even be happy... ever since he left... >_<
I felt like he took my soul with him. I know that makes absolutely no sense... but I feel drained. I'm not myself anymore.
I almost broke today. I don't know what to think...
I've been wanting to go back to old habits...ones that aren't so healthy... >_>
But I know that those things won't help me, they'll only cause more trouble. I feel trapped.
I drained myself of all my tears it feels like. I'm numb to all pain inflicted upon me.
I can't hide how shitty I feel...sorry. I can't just fucking smile and be happy and put on a show like other people.
I'm sure he doesn't notice what the hell is going on. Who even knows?
I give up trying.
Too many broken promises, too many broke pieces of my heart.
What hurts the most is...you don't even notice.
Not to mention,
You're hurting me more by avoiding me.
What the hell do I have to do?
Sorry I'm not exactly sane right now,
It's somewhat hard for me when life is pulling me in a million directions right now.
These thoughts just won't stop rushing through my head.
The memories are so vivid....
Playing back constantly in my mind.
Why I keep doing this to myself... I'll never know.
I just...give up.
You broke your promises...sorry I'll have to break mine.
But you don't care....so fuck it all.